Our friend Melissa calls things a 'let-go' as in, "That's a let-go." Evidently, one of my let-gos since January 10th, has been social niceties and discourse and polite conversation. People - all people really at one point or another - totally annoy me. I find myself unable to carry on polite, or even meaningful conversation. I lose track of the subject, track of time, interest...I just can't make myself pay attention. Which, I am afraid gives the impression of disinterest and to be honest, sometimes it is, but more typcially it is just, I can't. I think conversation has to be a let-go for me. It certainly isn't working out. ;)
I don't always want to talk about Anna or her cancer or her hair or Ella and her challenges and successes but I find myself reverting to the topics of a new mom. I discuss a lot of poop and pee and sleep habits and not a lot about politics or religion or American Idol or current world events or even things that really interest myself so I am sure I am boring everyone because I am totally boring myself (is that normal, do I typically bore everyone?!?!? That thought just occured to me - in which case it really is all a let-go! :) )
Someday. Someday I will be interested and capable of normal adult conversation, but today, not so much. Grown-up talk is a let-go. Anna needs to go potty.
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